Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Reasons for the Season of Change

Let me count the reasons why I'm persevering with my lifestyle change to take better care of myself and "Take a Load Off."

• Top of the list is feeling better. My whole body is creaky and cranky. I'm slow to get up out of chairs, to get out of Bob's Z28, to get up off the couch, get up off the floor or when I'm gardening.

• Chronically sore feet need to feel better and I'd like to do it without cutting. I want to walk all over the world.

• Would be nice to get off blood pressure meds, anti-inflammatories, Advil.

• Clothes are feeling very uncomfortable right now. Too full doesn't feel good.

• I don't want airline seats to be tight -- or seat belts in Bob's plane stretched to the max.

• I'd like to look better in shorts, swimsuits, sleeveless tops.

• Losing weight will get my family off my back about it, especially Daddy.

• Being fit will help my professional look. Might even help Bob's professional look to have a super fit wife on his arm.

That's probably enough for now to look back and remember what it was like to be this big.

Planning to get to a Weight Watchers meeting at 6:30 p.m. tonight.

Monday, December 29, 2008

Yes, I can

So here I go. I could always wait until the new year or when Bob leaves for overseas Saturday, but I'm thinking I need to make a lifestyle change and now.

The debut of "Takin' a Load Off" is to chronicle getting healthier and happier with myself -- the whys and hows of staying on or falling off. It's being accountable and being able to better track what works and what doesn't. And hopefully, it will help me track what makes me successful.

I've been pondering what help I'm going to use. The programs I'm considering are Nutrisystem, Weight Watchers and Jenny Craig.

I've used Nutrisystem once before about 21 years ago to lose my baby fat after having my darlin' daughter. It worked and I lost the about 25 pounds I had leftover, but having to eat only their food was pretty boring and awful. And I need to lose way more than 25 pounds.

The same objection goes for Jenny Craig, which I also used successfully a long, long time ago. Their food is also boring, boring, boring. And neither Nutrisystem or Jenny Craig allow for anything off their program, which would be tough for traveling.

Weight Watchers has both good things about it and other things that probably contribute to having fallen off before. The good things are that I can cook my own food and make it taste better and be more satisfying. I can travel and make good choices about what goes into my mouth. I can control my own destiny. If I bite it, I write it, is a WW phrase that comes to mind.

The hardest part is one of the other catch phrases, "If I drink it, I ink it." Although WW allows wine or other alcoholic beverages, after one or two glasses of wine, I don't particularly care about journaling and that's one of the things that makes me successful. If Bob wants to have a martini watching the sun go down, it's going to be awfully hard to sit there not imbibing a bit too. The key is having just one, or maybe two. And no mas.

So I think WW wins. I checked and there is a 5 p.m. meeting that I think I'll attend. My favorite WW leader too. One step at a time.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Losing Jennifer Aniston

In the beginning ... Dec. 28, 2008 ... there was pain. Pain in my feet. Pain in my knees. Maybe even a pain in the *ss. I'm 55 and I feel 85. I think my 86-year-old mother-in-law is getting around better than I am some days. I just don't feel good. I suppose actually that's well, in deference to the word police.

This picture doesn't even represent my highest weight, probably about five pounds less than now, but I like that I'm walking away -- kind of symbolic for what I need to do.

I'm at an all time high weight and I'm paying for it big time. I don't even want to admit how much weight I'm talking about but it's probably the equivalent of a fourth-grader, a daunting fact. Or maybe it's as much as the too-skinny Jennifer Aniston. I need to lose Jennifer Aniston. Yikes.

I'm horrified that I'm here, starting again. And that I've regained the ground I've lost. And that I'm embarking on my zillionth diet of my lifetime.

I need to do it this time. Have to do it this time, if I want to enjoy life and be active. I have way too much living to do.

So I'm going to embark on Weight Watchers again. AGAIN. I'm a smart woman and I can do this. And I can and will make good choices. I can do this. I deserve to feel better, live better, love better and love myself better.